Yay I finally have Internet in my room!! So a little update on what landed me in the hospital. On Monday I went in for a check up with my OB when he went to check my cervix as soon as it pooped up on the screen I knew it wasn't good. He did a quick measurement and said I need you to go to Labor and Delivery so, off I went. I was there a few hours when I was told that the Perniatoligist was not in and wouldn't be in until tomorrow so I was to go home and come back and see her on Tuesday. I asked if I was going to have these babies any time soon they said no. So on Tuesday we went in for an appointment with a Perniatoligist. She did a cervical length scan and showed that it had shortened since Monday this is not what we wanted to hear. She told me she would be admitting me and sending in the NICU Dr. to let us know are options. To say it was hard would not even begin to explain the emotions. Thankfully Nick was there to ask all the important questions. He let us know that they do not do anything to save the babies before 25 weeks unless at our request. He than told us about the chances of survival and sever and minor disabilities. He than left us to talk if we were going to ask them to try everything to save our babies they were going to be transferring me to a different hospital that supports babies born before 28 weeks. He left us to discuss what we wanted to do he let us know that nothing we decided was set in stone but if we felt we would possibly want them to intervene if born now I should be transferred he than left me and Nick to talk. When he walked out Nick looked at me and just cried I have never seen Nick look so lost. We both just cried we gathered are selves and tried are best to discus are option we decided we wanted to be transferred. Than thing got interesting they let us know that there were 3 hospitals in the area that supported babies born before 28 weeks one was in our city another was an hour away and another about an hour and a half. They told us the would request the one in our city but there was no way of telling which would have a bed available for twins. I just prayed and prayed it would be the one in our city. My poor husband is going through so much I didn't even want to think of him having to drive a few hours round trip just to see me. It was about 1 in the morning when we found out we would be transferred to the hospital in our city. Thank God!!! So at 2 in the morning I experienced my first ambulance ride its no fun ladies!!

When I got to the new hospital room I realized I went from the Marriott to Motel 6 haha but its OK I'm close to my Hubby and family!

So here I lay, literally! Ever so thankful for each day that passed and my little lovies are still inside baking. We had are break down and now we are ready for a fight. All I can control is my attitude and DAMN IT, I am going to stay positive my little ladies are fighters! After a rough round of IVF and the possibility of the whole thing being scrapped these two have fought and I owe it to them to do the same! Thank you ladies for all your support it really means so much to me and my hubby!

23weeks 3 days!! Bake Babies Bake!!

Everyday matters!!

Well ladies Im in the hospital!! Ive been here since Tuesday and it doesnt look like I will be going home until my little lovies make thier apperance!! Lets pray thats a long long time from now! Tuesday was one of the hardest days me and the Hubby have ever had. Meeting with the NICU Dr we were asked questions no parents should ever have to answer. At this point all we can do is keep faith and stay postive. I am feeling positive today I really am trying to stay in a good place. I gave the girls a good talking to and let them know they cant join the party just yet. I will save all the details for another post Im doing this from my phone and its making things a little tricky!!

22 weeks!!

Guess who got dressed and put on some makeup today?? This girls!!!  Yes it was for a Dr appointment but it was beautiful out today so it was nice to get out of the house!!

OB appointment went good today. No changes to the cervix it still measured around 2.5 at its shortest and 2.8 at its longest. This works for me of course I wish it had gotten a little longer but it didnt get shorter so Im good! Babies looked good both were moving and shaking the whole time! My Doctor told me I can go out for a few hours this weekend as long as Im not walking so, I think me and the hubby are going to go register. Im a little nervous about this but, I really believe we are going to bring these little lovies home. I might actually be a little/a lot excited about it! In other good news I think we have names picked out but I will save those for another post!

Since I actually got dressed today we got take a belly shot! I'm looking huge and loving

 every second of it!

21weeks 6days & still baking!

Sorry it was so long between post. My first week of bed rest I boycotted the internet because Dr. Google was pretty much the Devil and had me in tears. Than our internet went down and I really wasnt in the mood to deal with it. .

Like the title says we our 21 weeks 6 days and still cooking so that's great news. I never really said why I was in Labor and Delivery a few weeks back. So I will sart there. After my OB appointment were I was told that my cervic had shortened I was prescribed Endometrin a lovely suppository and strict bed rest this was on a Thursday. Sunday morning I woke up and had a gush of discharge, I mean wet through my underwear, pj's and on to the bed sheets I freaked out called my OB and he sent me to L & B. The L&D OB came in and said she was concerned my water had broke. I was a complete mess. Thankfully it didnt and all the liquid was a reaction to the suppository. She did a cervix length scan and told me it was a 2.3 (not good) it was 2.9 just a few days earlier. Of course I started to cry and then the nice Dr. looked at me and said just relax at this point there is nothing me or you can do to change the outcome it they come they come. I mean seriously!! Im so over rude Dr's! I understand they need to be honest but is a little compassion to much to ask for? The next few days were pretty much a blur. I just felt numb. I had lost my faith. It was just such a reminder that my body is out of my control its like its not even my body. It brought all of are struggles right to the surface.

I have had 3 appointments since than 2 with my OB and 1 with the Perniatoligist we also had our 20 week scan. There hasn't been much change in the cervical length department but it has been ranging from 2.5 to 2.7 at each appointment which is good news. Our scan went great and both babies are right on target everything looked good with both. Baby B was a little deep in my abdomen so they couldn't get a clear picture of her spine so I will go back next week for that. The appointment with the Perniatolgist went good he was really positive he talked to me for over and hour. He let me know why he would not do a cerclage and after our talk I agree with him. He had a lot of great information and I left feeling a little more confident. The only thing is as he walked out he said Im confident we will get you to 34 weeks!

34 weeks!! Thats only a little more than 12 weeks away. I pray Im one of those ladies that magically carries twins to 40 weeks. (A girl can hope) He has me drinking 2 protein shakes on top of my regular food intake to help with the babies growth. It has taken everything in me not to google the heck out of all of this. Im not though! If I want to keep any of my sanity I am going to stay away and stay as positive as possible! My next appointment is Wednesday and my anxiety has already started to creap in. Praying there hasnt been any changes in the cervical length department.


If you are still with me Thank You for listening and please keep us in your prayers!

Scared.

Im not sure were to even start this but I will say it has been a rough week. Apparently my OB new something I didnt a few weeks ago. When I went in to the office on Thursday he told me my cervix had shortened to 2.9 when I went in to Labor and Delivery on Sunday (Yes Labor and Delivery) the OB said his notes said 1.9. Im pretty sure I would have remembered 1.9. She said it was now 2.35 so do I freak out or feel better if it really was 1.9 than I should be happy if it was 2.9 this is awful there was only 3 days in between scans. My OB placed me on progesterone suppositories and strict bed rest. I just dont know if its working or not!!! Its ridiculous! I am a complete basket case. I asked the OB at Labor and delivery about putting in a Cerclage she said they dont do that with twins. Than she looked me dead in the face and said look if you are going to lose these babies there is nothing we or you can do now just go home and rest. Are you fucking kidding me!!!!! I was in such a world wind of emotions I swear in that moment I lost all faith. Is there really nothing that can be done? I mean come on just lay down and hope for the best? Give me a break I will be harassing my OB office once it opens and pray and pray these babies stay in and bake as long as they can!